the alone effect

have you ever the nights when you stay at home
there's low music playing the ckground and you feel at ease
but for some reason it's not an easy ease

you're alone - and it feels like the entire world knows
that you're alone

tonight is a night where i'm alone
i sit typing, avoiding words from words
moving from table to couch to floor
torn unsure

i know what needs to be done
i feel what wants to be done
i wonder what may be done
i wish for what has yet to be done
alone

and the world knows it

for this i can't throw blame
like game
i am an allstar this i know
you know (he knows)

but for this i can't throw blame
this is me
sad alone
the music plays on bringing me down
but i can't stop it

i like the tune the melody
the lyrics they're fun
they're uplifting
i'm not
ironic

and here i write and write and vent and go
and wonder if you wonder
why
what's his deal
his problem

it's just me
another side
facet
face it
i'm me

and tonight i'm alone
at home
typing and thinking
singing and squirming
writing out what must read
like a stream of consciousness

there it is
i stop

hic solo sum nocturn