i have to laugh

i remember the expression - or at least i think i remember it being an expression
"i laugh so i won't cry" or something like that.

i've realised that i often find myself saying this. either to myself or to others. situations vary, but usally they're the shitty ones that make us hate whatever it is that we're doing - working, playing, trying to do neither... of late i've found myself stressing over my work and how clear i am, equivalent, properly message-ing, not mumbling, blah blah blah. and as such, i find my self just as often telling myself (and others for that matter) that i need to laugh, otherwise i'll cry.

when i first started saying this, i think it was in jest. ha ha, oh dav.e funny you are. how cute how migon. i'm too old for cute now i'm not so much mignon (..okay, i am a bit mignon)

but when the sht comes aflying, i get athinkin' about not just me, but also about the people who work with us. they're the ones who will need to laugh (and/or cry) when i frak up.

haha funny tear
tear funny
haha
funny ha tear
shinny



*i first wrote this about four nights ago, drunk and not all too sober otherwise neither. it was rife with mistakes and un-me-isms. i almost posted as was, but couldn't. i'm sure i've missed some things, but here you have it world.

let's laugh

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